Depression of Moving....

I guess it is all finally coming to a head with me and I feel so down and depressed with all that is going on in my life at the moment...it feels almost like I am on a runaway train that is barreling out of control! The house is in complete shambles, boxes, trash, just complete cauous, this place where I once came to find peace is just as stressful as my workload at the creamery! Tony and i were discussing last night about how different this move will be for us, we normally can unpack in a day and have the new home feeling homey again within a few days, but this time that won't be the case. It is raining today so all around the house will be mud, and the family friend that is building our decks will be unable to work today because of the rain...without the decks we can't move any of the large furniture into the house because of the grade of the ground. The interior of the house still needs some fixing, we need lots more shelving in all of the closets, and we don't have any A/C at the moment because the factory did not order it, so that could be another week. We are living with bare minimums here at the current house, and I am just so ready to get back into some sort of routine!

I think this move is affecting Gabriel as well, as he has awoken twice this week from peeing in the bed, so I think he is internalizing things as well. Tony and I are so worn down from the work at the creamery and the moving, and all the employee problems at the moment, we just come home at night and CRASH, life has to get better, right? This move is supposed to help our quality of life, not moake things worse!

Tony will be on the delivery truck for at least the next week training one of the 2 newest drivers, my mom and dad will help to train the other, we have farm tours that we are trying to do, but when an employee calls in sick, and we are already short of help it makes doing the tours a complete pain in the rear! Although we are getting $4 per person, we just don't have the manpower to keep it all going. We hired a new office assistant, and she will be working part-time, but it would be really great if our full time office person could come to work everyday. It seems like more and more lately she has excuses for everything and can't seem to keep her personal life from affecting her work at the creamery. Half the time I don't know if she is telling me the truth or not! So on top of everything else, tomorrow I have to do her work from today since she called in again, for the 2nd time this week! I think she has got it in her mind that she couldn't be replaced, but her job isn't hard at all, and I know we could replace her if we needed to, she has been with us for almost 3 years, so it would be a hard change but she has really started to slip lately!

I am sure this is just some of the trials we will have to endure, we will be fine, but I just wish it to be over, with better days to come!